Torn between what reason says

I am not feeling well, just literally not feeling too well after knowing everything... My mind is in a mess, the things i have predicted and hoped so hard for it being just a mere illusion i am having is actually happening... I'm in a total speechless mode now, I am sorry to say that... I have been repeating myself for the countless times, in hoping you will get my words and retreat from this nasty situation you are in... However, it just doesn't seem to work at all as you chose to go your way and pretend problems never exist from the very start... Its kinda hurt to hear you saying things that you shouldn't be saying about yourself and things you have done... I know it was very hard to make a decision when you are being driven by feelings and devils in your brain, its been tough for you and I understand...

You have assured me with your words countless times saying you will heed my words but nothing seem to be done yet... Again, you have said the same thing and I am having my doubts on that... Will you do the things you SHOULD be doing now or will you go back to the old tracks, walking aimlessly and pretend nothing ever happened at all??? PLEASE do what is BEST for you at least ONCE, don't drown yourself into this endless sorrow... I will give you my respect on any decision you have made but you should also know that I will not give you my support on any wrong decision you have made (I will respect that)... Think wisely PLS, DRILL your brain and Think deep... Don't be feelings driven again...

(P.S. So here I stand fighting what I feel for you, Torn between what reason says and how I really feel) Is this how you feel??