Feelings show

Sometimes I just felt that I am a fool for some reasons as I feels like I am being used... It is an awkful feeling and I hate it, I always wanted to beautify everythings in my life even though it is impossible at times... I do feel that I am naive for thinking this way as no one is perfect in this world, everyone has a dark side (or ugly side) even your best friend, love ones or even the one you trusted the most... The side they never wanted to reveal only under some circumstances and it is really hurts to know that they can actually betray you or throwing temper at you for no reasons... Although I do understand their reasons for doing this yet I still feels hurt, as it is inevitable to feel that way...

You put your trust in them, expecting them to know you well inside out but sometimes it just turned out to be what you don't expected... Life is unpredictable and I totally agree with this, as people are just like climate they can be warm at this moment and become cold all of a sudden, you can't really predict what will happen next... Maybe lighting or thunder, who knows... I know you always asks me to cheer up again but it just feel so hard to do that, I will try to don't worry...

I really feels that my concern for others and kindness are being taken for granted at times, maybe I have gave too much which make them think that it is nothing or worth nothing at all... I also tend to give in too much as I wanted to prevent any unwanted conflicts and because of this my kindness is being taken for granted... Maybe I should learn to be more firm and stop giving in too much,this should makes my life better... God bless and night...