Getting Sick

Sometimes I really feel like asking whether you truly understand me and know what am I thinking... I'm really tired and sick of explaining myself as it just feel so stupid to explain to a person who don't truly understand the meaning within my words... Just stop it ok, don't even bother to ask anymore, I need time to reflect on myself and air to breathe... I am getting annoy easily nowadays, just don't know why I've become like this... Maybe is due to the stuff which have been happening around me, search me... My brain is cracking from all this thinking I've been going through, mind can't think straight and everything, all of this just makes me feel so down and lousy...

‘Home sweet home’, what is that supposed to mean… Everyone has a home in their heart somewhere but sometimes I just lost my way to home… Home sweet home just can’t seem to register in my mind as I’ve started to get tired of getting home everyday… Instead of getting home I feel more like escaping from there at times, no one really truly understands me there and I really feel so damn tired, exhausted of explaining myself every now and then… If you still don’t understand just forget it and don’t even bother to ask… I really need some peace and quiet right now, desperately needing it… I’m lost my dear angel; please show me the path to home once again…

The quietness
The darkness
Emptiness in my heart
Foolishness I felt

Indulge myself
Drown myself
Into this mystery night
Which cave me deep

Breathlessly
Helplessly
Trap in this endless night
Aimlessly I felt

Angel of light
Angel of hope
Please be my guidance
Brings me direction....