Reflection and stuff...

Going through lots of thinking and reflection these few days, wondering what i'll be in future what jobs i want to work in and stuff..Parents were encouraging me or you can said telling me to take up courses which is ''useful'' and will benefit myself. Really, I am lost sometimes on the road and wishing someone will guide me through this merciless world. Stress has slowly grow within me and I don't know why as I never been like this for the past few years. Maybe this year is the most important one as it can determine my ''life and death'' and where I suppose to go. There is times I wished I can just run away from toubles and do not want to face the reaclity just don't know why a lot of contridiction have happened here and there. Feeling tired about things that had happened in my life like those that had happened at home, misunderstanding, make a fuss out of something that is ridiculous, being unreasonable and stuff. Can't really find anyone to talk maybe is because of myself, as I don't really like to shared some very personal stuff to others even my closed ones. I prefer to keep it in my heart as there are some stuff that I'll feel uncomforable to say it out(Oh Whatever), Don't feel like revealing too much of myself.... I just felt there's some kind of force keep draining me off (just my imagination). If I have the power to change my life and fate I'll want better one, one that without troubles I know its impossible just dreaming and talking rubbish.

I feel like I'm walking on a rocky path that really need lots of thinking and making decision on how to make it into a better one. Trying hard to write my own story in life and not written by others as this is my life I want to have full control of it. There are so much more to learn in life its a never ending journey or you can said study. As time pass I hope I can be more mature in handling some things like emotion and stuff...God Bless and nitez...