Thinking as usual.....

Its a new year, everyone is happy about it me too... Yet as the same time I felt angry and sad about it due to some matters... People can be so ignorent, it is so frustrating when they are acting this way... In a friendship, everyone should try to understand each other in order to prolong the friendship... If no one is there to try to understand any of that it will be a disaster... Its exactly like my case, I will named that person 'L'... The thing goes like this, let me ask how will you feel when you are asked out from your friend on a day but that person just happily forget the time and made you waited like an idiot... The answer is frustrated, yes I'm totally feeling that, and when I tried to tell her how I felt she actually thinks I'm picking on her in every matter... What a great friend I have, we've been friend for a year or so and this is the type of impression I've been giving her...

It is so damn disappointing when you think that person actually understands you turn out to be totally not... I'm always the one who is trying to understand her and giving in but what do I get in return? All that I got are misunderstanding, being blamed for things I didn't do and even more of that... What is this, is this how you treat your friend, I'm really thinking... Its just so f**king frustrating when you keep on thinking you are the innocent one or victim and I'm the bad guy... I'm really speechless when you actually said that when you received my message... If you don't start to think through what you've been doing and thinking, this friendship is just seem so useless and senseless to me...

God please lead the way and guide me through, I'm lost once again....