Thinking through.....

Love is a thing that I never had, i mean in terms of boy girl relationship.... I had it before but it was all short and quite an unpleasant experience which gave me doubts about men.... After all this years, I have came up with a conclusion which is never rush into a relationship if you are unsure about it....

I'm feeling unsure right now as every bits and pieces of you are still in my mind.... Somehow I just think of you unknowingly, I just don't know why am I so slow in finding out that 'feeling'....
Should I be persistence? That is the question which I've been asking myself.... Or should I just leave everything to god and fate.... I really have no idea, i'm lost.... How should I react if i ever see you again, will there ever be a chance which I can see you again? Or Maybe I should just leave all the memories behind and move on.... It just doubt me so....

Enjoyment, Laughter and Fun....

Celebrated Becky's birthday on the 5th of may (actual date is on the 6th), it was full of laughter and fun hahaha as I have planned some surprises which had shocked her like hell hahaha... Went to food republic to have our dinner before heading down to indochine the sanctuary (my favourite bar hehe)... Rin Rin ordered some kind of satay been hoon which tasted like laksa hahaha and I don't think it was nice =x... After a satisfactory dinner, is the time for our main programme of the day which was the surprise we had for her at INDOCHINE hahaha... Before getting started with the 'programme of the night', Tong and I went off secretly to get the birthday cake and I also managed to talk to the manager at indochine about the plan for the night hehehee (becky doesn't know what's in store for her hahaha....).... The manager was really nice and she was willing to cooporate with me (thank you so much)....

Once the band was up, they started to sing some songs before reading our request... It was so funny when he read 'Rebecca' and our dear birthday girl can still look around for that someone who has the same name as her (not knowing that someone was actually herself).... -_-'' They managed to drag her on stage and made her to sing a birthday song for herself before singing her a birthday song hahaha... The process was so damn hilarious, oh my god I can't stop laughing hahaha... It was a memorable birthday celebration for her, I don't think she can forget about it after being dragged on stage and all that stuff hahaha....(not forgetting that it was all happened during the 'peak' hour hahahaah).....

Back to my usual stuff...

Its been a long time since the last poem I've posted in this blog of mine... Don't really have the time to sit down and write due to work and projects which have occupied the entire of my life... I'm feeling exhausted as the days went by, sick of working... Gotten the idea of composing this poem from a friend of mine and here goes....

Wondeing, thinking
I always do

Are you the one
doubt me so

Feelings for you
I always have

Words of temptation
Drown me so

Key to your heart
I never had

Road to love
Blinds me so

Held by hesitation
Consumed by confusion

Should I play
This game of love....?