The Big '2'

Thanks you guys (Rebecca, Hui ning, Li yun, Yih rin, Edwin, Xiao tong & Shu wan) so much for the accompany and the perfect birthday gift you guys have bought for me... I'm very happy and enjoyed myself, really... Thanks xiao tong for treating me a yummy yam ice cream, love it hahaha... Finally the big '2' has came, I don't know what to expect from that... It is time for me to be more mature and be a better person...

Best friends, how do you define that I really don't know... To me everyone that I know are my friends and I'm glad that I've met them in my life... Who is the best and who is not, is it necessary to rank them, I'm confuse... I always contradict myself with the words I've said and the things I've done... What have been said can't be taken back, just hope that no one will take my words so seriously as I don't even know what am I talking about at that moment... My friends, correct me if I did anything wrong or said anything weird as I am lost at times...

Forgetting is a way to forgive.....

My lord please bless my family & friends

Stefanie signing off....

Totally stupid

I'm so damn screw up today, I just don't know what is going on with me and my stupid brain... Nothing is working well today, totally nothing DAMN IT!!!! How could I commited such a stupid mistake its just so freaking stupid AHHH!!!! Which caused me to say kiss goodbye to my lab test mark... Everything just wasn't going well for me today, I'm so freaking pissed off ok... How could I, seriously just how could I commited this type of stupid mistake... Right now I just hope and pray that everything will goes well for me on this coming fri, no more stupid things should ever come out from me again, I should not screw up again... No way should I do that again if not I will be totally screw... DAMN!!!!!!!!

Growing up and get older....

Time has passed, I'm growing older and will be stepping into the big '2'... Its something new to me which also means a new life a new begining of everything... With the big '2' coming near it is time for me to grow up and learn to be more mature in handling things, anything that comes in my way...

His face has appeared in my mind again, I've already forgotten how many times this has happened... I really don't know why am I feeling this way, been feeling something that I never felt before... When knowing that he is with another girl now, my heart just hurts unknowingly... Something is aching within me, I really don't know why I'm feeling that, there is no reason I should been feeling this way... I need to forget and let it go, all the feelings I once had for you should be history by now... Let it go, let it all go, just let it go... You are so near yet I'm feeling you're so far away emotionally... I'm over it...

Days go by

I've been here

Wishfully thinking

It was all a lie

Never knowing

I've been hurt badly

Where are you

Where is the hand

Which hold me close

I've lost it

I've been defeated

Time is the only remedy

Which will get me back up again...

Thinking as usual.....

Its a new year, everyone is happy about it me too... Yet as the same time I felt angry and sad about it due to some matters... People can be so ignorent, it is so frustrating when they are acting this way... In a friendship, everyone should try to understand each other in order to prolong the friendship... If no one is there to try to understand any of that it will be a disaster... Its exactly like my case, I will named that person 'L'... The thing goes like this, let me ask how will you feel when you are asked out from your friend on a day but that person just happily forget the time and made you waited like an idiot... The answer is frustrated, yes I'm totally feeling that, and when I tried to tell her how I felt she actually thinks I'm picking on her in every matter... What a great friend I have, we've been friend for a year or so and this is the type of impression I've been giving her...

It is so damn disappointing when you think that person actually understands you turn out to be totally not... I'm always the one who is trying to understand her and giving in but what do I get in return? All that I got are misunderstanding, being blamed for things I didn't do and even more of that... What is this, is this how you treat your friend, I'm really thinking... Its just so f**king frustrating when you keep on thinking you are the innocent one or victim and I'm the bad guy... I'm really speechless when you actually said that when you received my message... If you don't start to think through what you've been doing and thinking, this friendship is just seem so useless and senseless to me...

God please lead the way and guide me through, I'm lost once again....