Feelings show

Sometimes I just felt that I am a fool for some reasons as I feels like I am being used... It is an awkful feeling and I hate it, I always wanted to beautify everythings in my life even though it is impossible at times... I do feel that I am naive for thinking this way as no one is perfect in this world, everyone has a dark side (or ugly side) even your best friend, love ones or even the one you trusted the most... The side they never wanted to reveal only under some circumstances and it is really hurts to know that they can actually betray you or throwing temper at you for no reasons... Although I do understand their reasons for doing this yet I still feels hurt, as it is inevitable to feel that way...

You put your trust in them, expecting them to know you well inside out but sometimes it just turned out to be what you don't expected... Life is unpredictable and I totally agree with this, as people are just like climate they can be warm at this moment and become cold all of a sudden, you can't really predict what will happen next... Maybe lighting or thunder, who knows... I know you always asks me to cheer up again but it just feel so hard to do that, I will try to don't worry...

I really feels that my concern for others and kindness are being taken for granted at times, maybe I have gave too much which make them think that it is nothing or worth nothing at all... I also tend to give in too much as I wanted to prevent any unwanted conflicts and because of this my kindness is being taken for granted... Maybe I should learn to be more firm and stop giving in too much,this should makes my life better... God bless and night...

Mesmerized

It's been quite some time since the last time I've blogged, been busy with school work and stuff.... I desperately needing a break, oh god give me the strenght to move on and walk on this rocky path I'm on.... Unexpected events happened around me quite often this few days, I felt mesmerized.... All right don't really wish to go into too much details, all I can say is everyone has their own set of mind in handling things what we can do is just respect it.... What I wanted to say is don't face all the things by yourself as it will be tough on you, I'm around to help if you need any.... If you find it is too tired to explain yourself every now and then, just forget about explaining anything if you think you have done nothing wrong as they should know you well by now.... But once in while you still need to do some explaining I know its contradicting, its just how life is.... No matter what decision you made I will respect it and give you my support, no question will be asked as I believe you know what you are doing.... God bless to all my friends.... Night...

The clock is ticking

My heart is beating

Moving through the time all along

Searching for that love i long for

The wind is blowing

My spirit is flowing

Setting myself free from everything

Looking for that peace I always wanted

The rain is falling

My mind is clearing

Washing away the pain I've been through

Giving me the strenght to move on

As time goes by

I'll be better in time

My fears behind me

This is my NOW.....