I must THANK MY LOVELY LOVELY REBECCA STEPHANIE YEO
FOR GIVING ME A CBOX!!!!


MUACH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



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Being someone or another....

In life sometimes you have to be someone that you barely even know, someone who is not you a completely different person... Its inevitable at times as it is a way to protect yourself in this world... You have to learn everything in a hard way before you can really know the ways of survival, I know it may sound harsh but its the true... Put on a perfect mask and be the unknown is tough and exhausting but you just have to do it at times as this is the way of life... In this world you don't know who to trust this is why you have to protect yourself by being someone else... There's no need to put on that mask every now and then as you will only cause more exhaustion to yourself, you can put it down when you are in your comfort zone... Everyone has their own comfort zone, if you don't know where it is search for it and don't said you don't have any as it is just a lie... No matter what you do, you must not regret and you must be true to yourself and don't ever say you can't, you have to believe that you can as if there's a believe there's always a way...

Search your heart and find the one you truly are, you can be others anyone but you must not lose yourself.... All right I will end with a poem that I've composed again...

I'm walking
I'm running
Hiding my idenity from the crowd
Being the one I never knew

I'm confessing
I'm lying
Forcing to be the ideal one
Getting to places I barely know

I'm crying
I'm smiling
Pretending to be alright all along
Feeling pain & sorrow is what i get

I'm searching
I'm looking
Finding the bits & pieces of myself
Fixing the parts I truly am

I'm sinking
I'm drowning
Lost in this world of misery
Aimless & emptiness filled me up

I'm seeking
I'm praying
Save me from this endless sorrow
Fill my life with hope & light once again.....

Words....

People can be just so unpredictble at times, amazes us with coldness, warmth, different emotion just anything, anything that you can name it... Misunderstanding, MISunderstanding and even more MISUNDERSTANDING is going through in my daily life, when will this ever come to an end... All of this misunderstanding can be easily solved if you will try to understand us or even talk to us instead of just walking away from us... Nothing will be solved if no one wants to speak their mind, I know some may think it is useless or even ridiculous as most of you will think it is such a stupid way, cause more MISUNDERSTANDING will be created if you speak your mind or so do they said... To me it is best to speak your mind when you sense problem is coming your way unless you can let it go or put it all down... If everyone just kept quiet when a problem arise or don't even bother to find a solution to it , it will just get us no where as nothing will be solved...

People just love to keep lot of things in their heart, I understand sometimes you just don't feel like sharing it and I respect that... But sometimes you just need to let it out in order to relief your mind and stress, if not you will just explode like a time bomb... All right I think I will just stop here as I've talk too much and I will just end with this...

Words is a way of communication
Words is a way of interaction
Showing us the interior of human beings
Knowing the every side of human beings

Words is a way of direction
Words is a way of guidance
Showing us the road to happiness
Bringing light to the darkness moment

Words is a way of exploring
Words is a way of discovering
Showing us the world of wonder
Can be either cruel or merciful

Words is a way of life
Words is a way of love
Showing us the comfort we ever need
Or bring us down unknowingly

Words can describe a thousand things
Words can bring us around the world
Use it wisely and carefully
Someday you'll find the ideal life you ever seek....

Looking back....

Flipping through the pictures of you makes me think of you for no reason, its been 4 years I think... Yes 4 long years has passed since the last time I heard from you, the memories just rushing back to me out of no where... What makes it so significant? Yes cause you sent me a msg on my birthday 4 years back and that is the last time I ever heard from you... Remember how you used to irritate me when we were in secondary school, it was full of laughter and joy then... Your hair was always neat and tidy but I kept saying it was a total mess, ya all the memories are coming back to me... Are you well over there, how's life and when will you be coming back to Singapore... Really want to hear from you once again just like old times, just once I'll be glad...

Sometimes I just felt that I let love slip away from me time to time and unknowingly, I do feel regretful at times... If I got the courage to say yes, maybe we will be one now... Just don't know what held me back at that moment, I really don't know and I'm sorry to make such a decision which hurts so deep... How I wish you were here once again and I can bring back the old times we used to have... I know its impossible and its just a wishful dreams that I am having now, but I am all right and will not let this brings me down... I'll just let God to decide for me and show me the road to happiness that I long for... God bless....